My love and trust.

haiizs!!!
i realli donknow
i been think it frm
ytd nite aftr come bak
home frm meeting you.
i donknow i have the trust on
you anot. i donknow.
i scare to loose you.
i donknow how im i
gonna change to be good
felt left behinde frm him
i donknow. I REALI DONKNOW
i love you. but u seem
to keep askin for break
just lyk, im not gonna
meet you cos i didnt brin
awin adult card, thn u wanted
to break, i oso wan to meet rite
WHY. treats me oso not
in a good way
ouhkies. i jus thinkin
to take the bus frm the mrt
nxt stop. didnt tink of takin
at mrt there. but oso the same wat
all the thing had happen
i felt you not loving me
i donknow im i wrong or
correct. haiizs
i realli donknow
i scare to loose you.
i realli still loving you
didiny you?
or u don love me alreadii??
last chance you giving!
was lyk sad
i been give u chance
wenever u broken it
i keep accpting u.
but u?? it is hard.
i donknow!!!!!!
where the love where
you giving me love, care,
swiit time and all..
it seem to be gona
and u oso had change to
another person
i don wanted you to change
you is you. no mttr how you
change, always it you.
im jus simple loving u so much2
always u asked to break
i will keep wanted you bak
why i did tiis. why
was it hard tat u
will understand.
seriouslly! i realli loved you
no other guy.

It friday.

Hmm.
it been a few
hours for waiting
him to kol me.
cos im meeting him
today.
and ytd nite, was asked
him to meet,
ouhkies. i asked for it!
well.
i wake up ard 11.48am
and don dare to
slp bak till 12plus
meeting you what
and been switchin on
my computer
and wanted to see my
fwenter. but it sux
of the type of
mobile fwenter!!
i don wan ouhkies and
ya!!. i couldnt know how
to go bak to fwenter
w/o mobile.
i mean normal type la!!
haiizs
so it sux ouhkies.
could see ur
profile, with layout
comment, song.
oh-my-goddess sake.
olrite been eaten my
lunch ard 12+
thn i msg him, asked
where he is
i been msg him for
many time, didnt reply
or kol!!. so wat im tinking is
he probably SLPING!!!
i hate him about tiis!!
meet and didnt came up!
fuck man.
don later wait till mom
come bak frm work
you kol me to meet you
ya rite, u should be know
i couldnt go out wen
mom was at home alreadii.
so it too bad lar
and im mad ouhkies
wanted to meet you
i wake up, and u say so
late. idiot ouhkies!!!
and now wat u doing man
kol me now lahzs!!
i have bath finish
and been waiting for u
should a pig man!!
ltr say u pig, u don lyk
haiizs. boring la dey!!

what a great news tat u told.

think im not,
sad, jealous is it uh!!
sudden told me that
you have bestie, it a girl
so. what you want me to do
wen i say your problem
cause im jealou alright.
so it been 3years
i also have
i have 3 bestie ok.
im admit that
im just been jealous
when u told me this
it just farked up to hear!!
just because of tiis
u dont wanted to tok
to me in the fone, dont
wanted to msn me is it!!
u farkin making me
had a bad day.
and u think it nice
to hear it is it,
that you say, later
something happen..
fark!!!! bitch man!!!

my relationship.

haiizs
whats happening
it been so farkin
mad those few days
whats wrong with me,
keep fighting whit my
bby. but i didnt mean it
im being stressing
for my skool and money
i just want to do things
smooth, simple, easy, happy.
but why. haiizs
im been scare to loose you.
but why i feel like this
cause urs mine.
i don wanna loos something
that let me happy, smile
enjoy. i really dont know
all i wants was a relationship
in happy life times.
im a simple girl with
carrying a simple dream around.
i dont really wanted to move on
it sux when ever the pain comes
around to me.

Those pic tat taken few days.


roaster chicken n us(=


It me and YaYah.



Emo?? Im not.

im sad.

ARGH
im feel lyk crying.
wat i do wrong
everytime sad of tiis and tat
wat i want to throw
u aside,
as i was tokin to my fwen wat
aft tat u kol
did i throw u aside
im feel farked upset
for tiis few days.
i hate it always
why!!!
do u need to tok bak
aftr tat get in to a fight
and it my wrong again
if u can tok me, im too much
why i cnt say to u?
if u hear it, are u angry or sad
didnt u understand how i
feel wen u hurt me at first
wen i sad and bein hurt
i try to do something
to get myself stronger
for not letting u to hurt me
wat on now.
revenge??
are u??
u did ouhkies
u didnt tell me
u did tell my fwen ouhkies
and i knew it
u had to hurt me lyk tiis
iszite, if u feel im hurtting u
do u tink wen u hurt me??
WATEVER.
u sure will tok me bak
u sure!!
i wanna move on,
but it hard.
as tiis 2yr+
im been loving u so much
and yet, u say i don love u
wat the fark!!
all i hear. i remeber in my
heart and mind.
happiiness things are always
hard to remember!!

ARGH. i hate tiis moment.

haiizs
there no reason for
me to say larhzs.
it realli so fark
had a fight wit him
and i wanted to cool down
by my own, so asked him to
kol me bak in a few minutes
thn he asked why don
tok nicely so i can cool down
im ouhkies wit it.
but wat had u say, u keep tokin
about it over and over again
now wat up again uh.
haiizs, i realli hate it so much
u jus don understand it, wen im
mad, i won be listen ppl ask me to
i jus follow wat i wants. is it hard for
u to kol bak, ouhkies, if u didnt kol
im bored olrite, i not angry.
and if u cnt do it, is tat my fault??
i jus wan to coold down for few min
and u say, no need to kol anymore.
wat the FARK.
makin more misunderstanding
i did msg u, u oso didnt kol me bak
are u wanted to treats me bak uh!!!
u jus cnt listen it
jus let me cold down larhzs
wen every ppl angry, they will do
other own thing, but hardly to
listen ppl, wen u asked me to tok to
u nicely and wat u say again,
u keep tokin bak to me
and ofcos i will shout,
as i want to let those air in
my heart to comes out. if u not happii,
u can let me cool down, i had
tok u tat wen i mad
i jus wan to be silent
now i say sorry, u didnt reply
or kol me, say tiis say tat oso wrong.

ARGH!!!
im hot ouhkies.
can u let me be wat i wan
wen im angry
cnt iszite,
haiizs
FINE!
if u don wanna kol!!
u farker!!!

moment of my time.

hmm
beiing bored. well, im waitting
for ur kol. hmm, i still missing u
while, we had jus met. i so hope
to see u everyday!!. hmm
if can let me turn the time bak
i wants all my fwens and my bf
i wanna turn last nite, to a good nite
as, it realli not ur fault to blame on.
it was my wrong, as u was just wanted
to tok to me, hmm. i oso donknow
wat the reason, tat im not reali
in a good mood, im sorry olrite.
it not ur wrong to blame on.)=
im still sad, even it last nite problem.
i realli don wanna loose u in my lyfe
as, u realli bein the one, to make
my lyfe bright, wen im missing my fwens.
ur not the one makin me sad all time.
u always giving me, a nice swiit time
tat why u don choose my EX, cos u are bttr
thn them. i hope urs always mine,
not others gurl ouhkies.
u make me more loving u,
and don want to let u go!!.
BiiBii, urs always mine, thn
others.

DATING.

well, another day again
it was sat...!!
my mom didnt work
today, and she cooked
porridge to eat, and prepare
some dish to eat with.
well, i was lying on my bed slpin
tat was ard 11+,
amelia kol, thn kol my hse,
lolls, thn she msg me
asked wen i wake up
kol her hse, asked
i wanna go out to shop2
so i did reply tat, nop, im goin out ltr
so she say oh, nvm it ok.
haiyo, last min ask me.
hahas.
hmm, slp bak again,
till the time goes to 12pm
i wake up, on my computer
charge mp3 and my fone,
and thn gone to bathroom.
hmm,it a fun days too
i meeting awin at 3pm shape
as she say [shape] tiis words.
so i eat my lunch wit my
mom and grdma, and next
i rest for awhile and i tok them
im out ltr, so mummii asked where i go
i say bugis wit my fwen.
so i get to dress up at 2, and she kol again
asked wat i doin now, so i say jus eaten
gonna dress up, so we end the fone ltr.
hmm. and i wen bak to my room
to dress up, tok of wearing my dress
as can see the weather is freakin
not hot!! hahas. opp. la
but my mom wash my white shirt
well, i was jus wash and wear
for 1 time onlii, hahas.
hmm so no choice i had to wear
poloti or my couple shirt
so i take my red poloti,
as my couple shirt was black
so didnt wanted to wear it.
if not i can be a hot gurl!!
hahas. so taken few min
to use my make-up and aftr tat
i wen out, and awin msg where are u
so i say i walkin at my blk
and i tok she reach, but im the one
thn for 2 bus gone, thn she came wit
atikah. she meeting her fwen so not
wit us, thn wen we all reach
northpoint mrt, i and awin Q up
to put my pay to my bank. aftr tat
we tap our card in, so striaghtly we
reach bugis, we go chomel
tat she bought a gift for raihaan sis,
thn she asked a medium box to put
and she oso had to pay for the box
the Q was so long. we just wait and wait
aftr all done, we go bak to take the box
wit the gift, thn we walked at bugis street
thn wanted to find for food, so we go for
kfc, hahas, tat was long time didnt eat.
aftr tat, we wen for shop again. aftr all
it a nice day, shoppin, i reach home
tat was ard 8+
so i surf the net onlii, watchin tv too
now abite tired la and it so
the freakin bored!!.

just blogging.

hmm, im tired n sian
but something let me
remind of him, idiot larhzs
waitting for his kol
for a whole nite ouhkies!
and yet, didnt u realize u
had tok me tat u will kol
me bak!! i wanted to meet
u today larhzs, but since i msg u
no kol or reply, so not my fault
alreadii.
so i decide to find my fwen,
wen i take my pay. i meeting
awin later, and wanna buy something
if i still had much money lar
hmm, aftr tat i go for shoppin thn
while waitin for awin to finish work
hmm,i wanna use my day at outside
tat all, i will not msg u or kol u
i will just wait for ur kol!.

a simple labour day i had.

well, it was a boring day
as i lying on my bed ard 12
and sudden get a msg ,
so i grabed it and view who sent
me msg, and it yayah.(=
she jus lyk my sis. hahas
asked wat u doing, gona go any where?
so i reply, im still lyin on the bed,
hmm didnt go anywhere, why
so she say wanna lepak outside
so i was thinking of esp,
hmm it had been a long time didnt
go to esp, since the day, wit azmi
fazrul and my bf.
so i asked awin if she free today
to go esp, well i waiting for her reply
i msg him, asked he wanna go
esp wit me and yayah, as i waiting for
awin msg, but so badly done tat
he didnt msg or kol, and awin reply tat
she not free, well she still workin
thn get her pay on today.
well well well!!!
wat the fark he doin man,
haiizs, so don care him larhzs
so i msg to yayah tat,
no one comes, as awin workin
and he didnt get to kol me
or msg me bak.
so we two jus go to safra to lepak onlii
hmm, it hot but can go out
it olrite larhzs
so idress myself simple as jus
near my blk, and it hot.
a short pant and a white shirt,
well didnt think it more hot
as i think!! so we will be met at the
old place we use to grather at the busstop
so i buy drinks first, well the weather are
hottie2. so i wait for another two bus
thn i get to met her up
hmm, so we go to yishun park to find
for sit, hmm, it veri hot
we keep tok and tok and tok
it been long time didnt meet her too
hmm, so she asked my bf still
didnt kol, i say nop
hmm, and aftr well, she get a
kol onlii and lyk no one
brother as to msg or wat.
jus simple as tokin onlii
hmm, aftr tat we wen to
chong pang to take her
lence and etc.
so bak to northpoint
and i wanted to buy long john
but saw our fwen, we change place
hmm, so i jus buy kfc
and bak home to eat.
hmm. and carry on watch my tv
hmm, 2moro take my pay
hmm, jus yayah and awin know tat,
haiizs, but think bak, i had no money
to go leii, omg! had to ask again!!.